昨天，做错了一件事。

我这个人，就是脾气不好。It’s like a factory-defect. Not that I blame the factory. I just mean, I’m a defective product.
今天一整天，都很不好受。有点想放弃自己，锁起来，带上一个面具，不再让“我”出现。

为了让自己心情好一些，我去看了看www.jpgmag.com。我是会员，可以线上看他们的杂志。刚好，我看到Issue no6。刚好，这一期的主题是”oops”。刚好，有读到这张照片的notes。

我觉得是上帝在对我说话。

有一张石凳子，它坐在我的一位好朋友的家门口。我看了3年了。每次经过就在想，“为什么不丢掉呢？那么占位，又没有用处。” 这位好朋友的妈妈，就是那么喜欢收留东西。别人家不要的，Auntie就会收留。

有一天，刚好我又到好朋友家中作客。剛好Auntie的一位老朋友來拜訪。有十幾年沒來拜訪了。這位老朋友自從丈夫去世，久久都沒辦法走出傷心，也開始和身邊的朋友疏遠了。聽說还患上憂鬱症。後來又聽說好了。聽說，女兒長大了，她也開始享受生活了。聽說，雨過天晴了。

車子駛進屋子。

老朋友一看見門外的石凳子，就緩慢地走向它，目不轉睛地。她的眼神，我看不懂。她，伸手撫摸那石凳子。淺笑著，有力地，告訴我的好朋友說，”這是uncle以前不要的石凳子，你媽收留了它。“ 她又撫摸了一下。看著這一幕，我的心揪著。那是，愛。那是，天長地久的愛。這麼久了，她還是愛著他。我彷彿看見了眼眶里有淚，但又好像不是悲傷的眼淚。那，是一種安慰的眼淚嗎？沒有顫抖的手，只有堅定、勇敢的步伐。

雖然不管我的事，但我在心裡感謝Auntie喜歡收留舊物。

現在，每次經過這石凳子，都會感覺好溫暖。:)

I’m really not a eco-person. I’ve never really given much thought to the state of our earth. But recently my friend S has been encouraging us to eat less meat, because of the inhumane ways that animals are being treated. And also that meat production contributes significantly to global warming issues. Oh man, now I sound like a bore and a nag.

Ok but this picture on today’s ST’s front cover did it.

He’s soooo cute!!! So shall we do our little bit to save our mother earth?

I googled “what can i do to prevent global warming” and found this link.
http://globalwarming-facts.info/50-tips.html

After reading the top 50 tips, I realize some of these things are just simple acts. Like some of these items..

Replace a regular incandescent light bulb with a compact fluorescent light bulb (cfl)
CFLs use 60% less energy than a regular bulb. This simple switch will save about 300 pounds of carbon dioxide a year.
We recommend you purchase your CFL bulbs at 1000bulbs.com, they have great deals on both screw-in and plug-in light bulbs.

- i will make sure my mum knows this, since she is interior designer and chooses lighting for many houses.

Do not leave appliances on standby
Use the “on/off” function on the machine itself. A TV set that’s switched on for 3 hours a day (the average time Europeans spend watching TV) and in standby mode during the remaining 21 hours uses about 40% of its energy in standby mode.

- I liked to leave my laptop or desktop on sleep mode. Ooopps.

Buy intelligently
One bottle of 1.5l requires less energy and produces less waste than three bottles of 0.5l. As well, buy recycled paper products: it takes less 70 to 90% less energy to make recycled paper and it prevents the loss of forests worldwide.

- 70 – 90% is A LOT!!!!! I rather spend a little more then.

Reuse your shopping bag
When shopping, it saves energy and waste to use a reusable bag instead of accepting a disposable one in each shop. Waste not only discharges CO2 and methane into the atmosphere, it can also pollute the air, groundwater and soil.

- Ok! Will put a shopping bag in my car!

Eat less meat
Methane is the second most significant greenhouse gas and cows are one of the greatest methane emitters. Their grassy diet and multiple stomachs cause them to produce methane, which they exhale with every breath.

- I’m a meat eater !! But for zhi hao and keina and phoebe and isaac… and ian and christian… and ethan.. and jayden… and gareth… ok, I’ll eat less meat.

Reduce the number of miles you drive by walking, biking, carpooling or taking mass transit wherever possible
Avoiding just 10 miles of driving every week would eliminate about 500 pounds of carbon dioxide emissions a year! Look for transit options in your area.

- Wah! I almost wanted to skip this point!!! I can’t imagine not driving. But ok fine! I know it’s selfish to drive that 10 miles.

Drive carefully and do not waste fuel
You can reduce CO2 emissions by readjusting your driving style. Choose proper gears, do not abuse the gas pedal, use the engine brake instead of the pedal brake when possible and turn off your engine when your vehicle is motionless for more than one minute. By readjusting your driving style you can save money on both fuel and car mantainance.

- YEAH! I do this! I always stop the car engine when the car is motionless. *pat on my back*

Ok I realize the list repeats after a while. HAHA! So there aren’t 50 things to do. In fact, not all are relevant la. And some of it only requires simple changes. Ok! So easy la! Let’s do it!

I guess it’s very natural for friends to share secrets or gory details about each other’s life. The moment you tell another person “eh, tell you something I haven’t told anyone before…”, you feel like you are much closer with this person. And as human beings, it feels good to be connected to another being on a deeper level. BUT not many people can keep a secret! Sometimes, they don’t do it on purpose but they might have forgotten that this particular information was told in confidentiality! I really learned my lesson today. And I would like to pass on this knowledge… If you need to confide in people in confidentiality, avoid the below described person.

Signs to look out for:
- When they secretly tell you other people’s secret! If they can reveal others secret, they can tell others yours too!
- When they confidently tell you that they can keep a secret! The more confident they are, the more enthusiastic they are to know your secret, the more likely they can’t keep a secret!
- Trust people who actually understand the burden of a secret. Some people I know are not happy when they know your secret because they are not burdened. And these are the people who would bring your secret to their grave.
- The quieter people, who don’t usually volunteer information in a group settings are likely to be better secret keepers.

But most of all, just keep your own secret! Tell it to a hole in a tree.

I’m glad there are some people I can trust in my life. The super 守口如瓶 people… like diya, ming-jie, suyi, wei (who is in Japan and no one can hear her even if she shouts at the top of her lung), HW and Nobuko! They are not just great keepers. I don’t even have to tell them what not to say. They are just great filters lo. But I’ve also made some mistakes…

Well… life is a learning process. We learn something everyday. And today I learn that I should keep my mouth shut.

如果不是有色眼镜，人类不会有等级之分，又怎么会进步呢？人就会很懒散吧。
如果不是有色眼镜，又怎么会有八卦？人生就会很乏味吧。
如果不是有色眼镜，又怎么会有所谓的“优越感”？人生就会很平庸吧。
如果不是有色眼镜，又怎么会筑起各种不同等级的房屋？每个人都住组屋，那也很奇怪啊！
如果不是有色眼镜，食物又怎么会有贵贱之分？结婚宴席上就不会一定有鱼翅，那鲨鱼就不会濒临绝种，那地球就会少了一个棘手的环保危机，那就不会出现一群为了鲨鱼而奋斗的enthusiast。人生就会很无聊。

Conclusion: 你要带着你的有色眼镜来看我，就带吧！If it makes you happy….

Did you see the sky today???

It was like a disney or pixar animation’s opening visual. It was like someone drew it in the sky. I’m sure someone is God. It was beautiful! I was driving so it was very hard for me to take any pictures. My assistant (only in the car la) very quickly whipped out my father’s dslr but trees or buildings keep getting in the way. owell.. The real thing is sooooo beautiful!

太陽被厚厚的雲層半遮住，呈現美麗的天空。很久沒有這麼多雲朵了！而且那麼厚！

Anyway, Diya and I have been going out there… Trying to go to different parts of Singapore. Err.. ok actually we went to ONE ulu corner of Singapore and we really like it there. We sorta go around looking for inspiration(?)… sorta. Anyway, took a lot of photos and lots of videos!

OH!!! Speaking of videos!!!! Why do we have the luxury of taking videos??? Yah, I’ve blogged about our endorser – AIPTEK in my blogspot, but you haven’t heard…. that… They just gave me my video cam!!!! HEHEHEHE! OOOHHH!!! Mine is sooooo 輕巧 !! It’s my palm size!

Introducing…. AIPTEK AHD T7 Pro!!!

So I’ve been carrying it everywhere I go to 搜集靈感! well.. and to 搜集美麗的畫面.

The thing about holding a videocam is that, I found myself looking out for beautiful things. I also started the habit of looking at things at different angles. Sometimes, you just have to tilt your head up or down and you see a whole new world. But most of the time we go along with life in a routine. We don’t realise the small little beauty around us. Maybe without this video cam, I would have missed out on today’s beautiful sky.

With a video camera and a seeking heart, I hope to capture some 你陌生的畫面 and bring it to you nicely…. which means nicely edited. haha! which takes a lot of time and effort. So please be patient!!! 真的不容易因為我是龜毛的！更何況, I’ve been focusing on writing lyrics. Once I hand up my “homework”, I will start making nice videos for ya!

So.. look out for it! and THANKS A ZILLION TO AIPTEK!

Just read a female magazine interview with their idea of an eligible bachelor.

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Describe yourself in a few words.
Humourous. Laid back. Sincere.

(CY: VERY lame question! How do you describe yourself in just a few words? I can never do that! And I don’t get this question. Why ask?)

Best Places to meet you?
Ice cream shops like… blahblah.. are my favourite haunts. You might also find me at Oosters or Timbre for some occasional after-work drinks.

(Another lame question. Why would we wanna meet him?? And hello not like in Singapore girls will go up to a guy the meet at an ice cream place and say “hey, wanna hang out?” And it’s not like his haunts defines him?)

What’s a great night out for you like?
Good food, a nice stroll under the stars and a great conversation following a play or a cool gig you can bob your head to.

(CY: WAD???? A NICE STROLL UNDER THE STARS???? ARE YOU FOR REAL?? Ok, I can accept a great conversation. But a stroll under the stars??? Even girls don’t do that anymore! Did he say that because he thinks the girls like to hear it? The notion of romantic night out has evolved… Or is he….. you know?)

What never fails to turn you on?
The sweet after-shower scent on a woman’s skin.

(Ok, his answer I can accept. But the question! Why do you ask that? Are we on a quest to turn man on? Reading this is making me dumber.)

What are your attitudes towards love?
Love is more about action than words. A relationship requires lots of commitment, monumental effort and plenty of love to keep it going.

(Sigh… Why are we defining love again…. I mean what kind of answer are we expecting?)

Sum up Miss Right.
At the most basic level, she’s got to share the same passion for my faith (CY: ok, that’s a sincere answer.) I am attracted to girls with an easy going personality with a hint of subtle vulnerability.

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Why am I blogging about this? I don’t really know. I just watched “The Ugly Truth” and just read this article and it just struck me that yes…men and women just don’t get each other, but really… what’s there to get? Every man and woman are (or “is”? my grammar sucks) different! There’s no ONE formula for all man! Every guy is a different person.

Sometimes we can’t even understand a best friend, why are we trying to understand the male species or the female species?

I don’t get why this female magazine is asking such general trying-to-understand-this-male-species question, when there must be a special, personal story that this man can share? I mean I read this. And I forget this.

Ok, I’ll go take a chill pill as instructed by Diya.

(PS: But i think the never ending quest to know the opposite sex makes good entertaiment. I just wished that people don’t take on-tv advices too seriously.)

人与人之间，最容易在共患难的时候，建立起友谊。

当我低落的时候，我会深深地感受到被爱的感觉。朋友们都会慰问、伸出援手。
当我有好消息的时候，反而，有时觉得你会不知道怎么反应。

人很自然的，会先想到自己吧。PRIDE。

举一个例子。有一天我告诉一位圈中好友有商家（Aiptek）找我代言，好友竟然说“Wah，我都没有。”

WAD???

有点失望，你没能和我共享乐。
有点失望，你把自己放在前面。

但，这是你最自然的反应。我只能说共享乐，难。

我与星光无缘，却换来另一个缘分－－香港！

所以，我就说嘛～人生是一场比赛，不要以为落后一点就是世界末日。只要活着，就有追上的可能。真的蛮期待去香港秀一秀的。

不过，说真的，当我接到电话说，我被选中为新加坡代表，去参加《全球华人新秀歌唱大赛》。尽管打来的SM游说我说这是梅艳芳、陈奕讯、郑秀文等出位的大型比赛，我的心里只有一个字－－SIAN！对于比赛，我看破了。唱歌是不能比赛的！我就客气地告诉SM说，我就快签约了，应该不适合。她才放下电话。

过一会儿，SM又打来了，说香港那边说就算有约在身也OK，只要还没发片。

我的心里只有2个字： aiyah….

我就说，好，那我和公司商量一下。

我就是有那么地 SIAN about 比赛！！！！

后来，冷静地、理智地想了想，其实只要把比赛想成一个表演，可以到香港去表演是多么HIGH的事情耶！！！！哈哈！这么一想，我就开始很HIGH了！哇！我想到最近喜欢的歌曲好多，可以拿来表演啊！好像AMEI的掉了／分生／相爱后动物感伤，梁文音的《我不是你想像的那么勇敢》，等。

我其实最想唱《疼憨人》，但是今天香港那边说不能唱自己的歌，有欠公平。urgh…. 无奈。可是，后来基于重重冗长的原因，最后选唱的是梁文音的《可以不爱了》和林忆莲的《相信》！耶～ 最重要的原因是。。。因为我爽！超爱《可以不爱了》的词，刻画地很深刻。而，《相信》是我自从林忆莲演唱会听过一次后，就超爱的，再加上是新加坡顶尖音乐人，林倛玉的作曲＋新加坡顶尖编曲人Terence Teo的作品。（词是林夕）WOO！同样是慢歌却是不同的意境。

刚说到“有约在身”，今天我和迪雅在K－UNION举办了我们的第一场，FIRST EVER（！！！）记者招待会。 之前，当然有出席记者招待会，但这是第一次我们两个人是主角耶！！！太HIGH了！真的要谢谢那些到场的媒体朋友！看到你们，真的让我感到无敌的encouraged！他们辛辛苦苦地访问了一个下午，我想我就等他们的报道出来了，再进一步的分享关于今天的点滴吧。

今天，好充实喔～ 最近忙于筹备专辑，过得好充实喔～

开心地入眠了。

最近，在看木村拓哉的《CHANGE》。其中有一段讓我得到很大的啓發。喔！我看的時候，是英文的字幕。以下是他說的一段話。。。。

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I used to be a 5th grader school teacher. and the students fought a lot.
So I would tell them…

” Let’s think about this. You’re in the same class, so when there’s something you don’t like, then tell them properly and listen to them properly. Then let’s think thoroughly. Not so that you will understand each other. But to realise that you are all different people.”

Human beings think that we are the same, we get mad when we get contradicted. When someone acts differently, we think “what the heck?” That’s when conflicts begin. But there are no two people who are alike! Everyone thinks differently and has different situations. That’s why I want the kids to understand that. After that, think of what words to use so that their feelings wil reach each other, how to express your feelings.

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我覺得這一番話蠻有道理的。

也就是說，要了解一個人，要先接受每個人都很不一樣。朋友應該就是所謂的同類。相似但又有點不一樣。
我們都會很想互相了解。但，可能我們都得承認，人与人是不能完全地了解對方的。

所以。。。。

我的總結是。。。。。

重點要來了。。。。

不要用自己的角度／觀點去評判別人的故事。

哇！！！！！厲害嗎？？？？ 哈哈哈哈！

我想這可能就是溝通的重點吧。

如果一直抱著self，沒有細心聆聽，或從另一個人的角度來了解，那你不如就躲在自己的房間里，自己講自己爽。
Well, or you can start a blog and shut off comments. hahahaha…